Failure?

I go into 2019 actually feeling like a failure. I can no longer afford to stay in my home so I’m selling it and probably moving back with mother. At 40 years old I feel like a failure. Over the past two months I have thought about self harm because it just felt like an embarrassment to be moving back in with my mother at this age. I’m thankful I have somewhere to go but at the same time it’s just not where I thought I would be going into 2019. I was laid off from job in 2014 I went back to work but at a lower salary. I was able to maintain for a few years but I just can’t do it any more. I want to take this next year or two to regroup get my savings back and payoff some debt I have accumulated in trying to stay afloat. I have not spoken these words to anyone but I had to get them out because it has been weighing on me very heavy. I had family offer me money but to me that would just be another temporary fix. I don’t know if I will go through the home buying process again but that isn’t my concern right now. Have you ever felt like a failure if so what caused you to feel that way and how did you overcome that feeling of failure?

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  1. Hey Tameka, I don’t know how.often you check your blog…reading this post, I can’t really relate except that I entered my new decade, thirties at end of December and I also feel that apart from becoming a mom, nothing much in life that I can feel.proud of. I am trying to get out of this rut because focusing on feeling like a failure in life pretty much drains my energy to make The changes I need to get out of this failure stage and attain success. So basically feeling like a failure.makes me remain as one. Please let us both resolve to let 2019 be the year of painstaking hardwork. Let us resolve to do everything in our power to take control of our life. Actually I have come to a point where I need to step out in faith, and ask God for that extra push. We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength

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